melissa

school starts in one more day. im excited, but pretty nervous and scared. i havent been in school in a year, and im finally going back and ill be a freshman once again. having 2 classes with cantos is definitely gonna make it easier for me to feel comfortable. and i know its gonna be hard trying to deal with school, work, friends and everything else, but im looking foward to doing it. well see what happens.

this week really sucks. im going on working 6 days in a row and i miss all of my friends so much. once school starts i wont be working as much, but as for now i need the money anyway so im not gonna complain anymore. i need to find a way to make time for everything and idk how im gonna do it, but i have to try. 3 more days to go till i get a day off =/

lisis gone now too and i miss her already. last night was fun just hanging out with everyone before she left. i love my friends. this weeks gonna be a lot of fun im really excited.

monday = blacklisted/ceremony
wednesday= internal affairs/guns up
friday= verse/have heart

and i just found out between the buried and me is playing irving november 29th!!! i cannot wait to see them again.

school starts in 2 more weeks, wow. im not ready yet, but hopefully then i will be and im kinda excited.

the past 2 days have sucked a lot. i got in a fight with my parents over money issues and theyre threatening me, so ive pretty much stayed home since last night and im going out of my mind. i really want to get out, and theres a lot of things i was supposed to do and i havent been able to because of all the shits thats been going on. i feel really bad about telling people i would do things and wasnt able to because of everything and i wish they would understand. i cant wait for school to start, im excited for something new and i need a change in my life right now. im gonna miss everyone thats leaving me to go away for school. alex 1x is gone and lisi leaving me soon =(<33 but theyll be back and ill still be here.

so basically i owe my mom over $1000 dollars and i dont even have half of that in my account. really cool. someone shoot me.

what a night. my parents are gone in montauk so i decided to have a few people over, but the only people that came were cantos, katy, allan, gary, tigo and their friend tom. i miss chilling with them so it was really nice and i had a good time. fuckin trains werent working so i drove everyone home and now im exhausted.

longest day ever. went to the city with cantos, katy, leah, nick, pretty, fancy, sophia and nick. took us about hmmm.... 4 hours to make it there. idk how we managed to do that. we finally got there and i got my shoes =) me, fancy and leah went to red bamboo and it was so good but made me sick. it was a fun day even though i had a headache and was exausted.

im kind of excited for school now. me and cantos went to nassau today to change our schedules and we now both have 2 classes together which should make it a lot easier on both of us. 3 weeks left of summer, going to make the most of it.

i wuv my bffzzzzz =)=) we chilled outside james house tonight and then me, cantos, jill, katy, scott, mike, jen and lisi went to prettys and had a cuddle party hahah. cant wait til tomorrow were all going to the beach after i pick up jen from work, and friday im going to the city with pretty and james so i can get new kicks. so excited! =)

um i slept all day basically. i dont feel well. and my mommy took my car to the carwash cause she said it was too much of a mess =) goodnight.

ive been thinking way too much again. and how much life sucks and how great it is at the same time. i love my friends so much, but i also dont trust anyone in this world and i can just hope that the people i consider my good friends and that i care about most, feel the same way. somehow, i need to meet a boy cause everyone ive met so far sucks and confuses the shit outta me and is not worth it. i give up wahhhhhh. im so tired and i need to clean my car. paul shapiros awesome. goodnight.

wow. flavor of love tonight, so funny. we watched it at jills house and made vegan brownies, which werent that bad by the way, and yo seriously that girl somethin..... wtf?? haha. i think i need to put the tv back in my room just so i can watch that show cause it made my night. i wanna go to the beach this week and see a movie cause i dont do those enough.

im also kinda excited, but nervous at the same time about going back to school. ill be going back with cantos and james so itll be nice and hopefully we can get a class together or something to take some pressure off. maybe ill meet some cool people, but theyll never be better than my friends now. i need to meet a boyyyyy. ugghghghh. only a couple weeks left. i cant wait till the end of august, so many good shows comming up. its gonna be fun. ive been having such a good summer with the most amazing people.

wow. flavor of love tonight, so funny. we watched it at jills house and make vegan brownies, which werent that bad by the way, and yo seriously that girl somethin..... wtf?? haha. i think i need to put the tv back in my room just so i can watch that show cause it made my night. i wanna go to the beach this week and see a movie cause i dont do those enough.

chillin in my pool with the bffzzz

yet another fun night with the bffs. met up with joe at jills house and then katy, james, scott, mike and cantos came over. we had some fun with the markers and tattooed ourselves. then we all went to iceland but it costs fuckin $7 to enter even if you arent skating so we chilled in the parking lot while james and scott went in. then toby and mike met up with us at starbucks and once again we hung out in a parking lot. and it doesnt even matter because we all have so much fun doing nothing with eachother. ughhh tomorrow i have work i dont wanna go, but scott better come shopping with me after cause he promised =)

i love my friends so fuckin much. allan picked me up from work and we drove to hempstead to meet up with cantos, katy, scott, james, mike, jill, lisi and 2 of their friends. then we all decided to go back to my house and go in my pool and toby and mike joined us. it felt soooo good. then everyone left except toby and mike and we met up with scott and james at the diner by where they live and it was so much fun i love those people more than anything<33 =)

cool. my first entry and idk what the fuck im doing haha. well works sucks. when i got home i took a nap and then mikey called me and i went to scotts house with everyone. then we all went to toby's and chilled and watched the guys play halo 2. kris and scott drew us cute pictures that are now hanging on my wall. i seriously love all my friends so much and i know i always tell them that but i cant say it enough. lisi better visit me and everyone else as much as possible once she leaves for school =( its gonna be so sad.